The Loss of Aimee

In the blink of an eye...your world can change...your direction can shift...your life can transform. In the blink of an eye, God got a hold of me, and his method to break me, was devastating, but I see His glory, even in tragedy. It's Saturday night and I am sitting on my bed, the balcony open, the street aromas coming though, smoke, taxis honking. My mind has been in a trance today with my recent and quick trip to the states and back. 22 hours after hearing of Aimee's death, i was on a plane, and now i am right back where I was. Tonight as I was walking through our neighborhood to stock up on food, different mosques went off with their calls to prayer. One by one the calm evening sky suddenly had a soundtrack, and my mind went wild. I know the reason I was called to serve here. The darkness is so heavy, and after witnessing the frailty of life this last week, my heart hurts all the more to bring glory where it is due. I am not skilled at the language, and make cultural mistakes daily...but I know I am where I am supposed to be. I know I was placed in this exact spot with a divine purpose. And maybe for the first time in my life, i am okay not knowing methods, the outcome, or the schedule...for the first time, i am reminded who is in charge, who can take it all away...who can make things happen. For the first time I don't care that I am not running the show...and actually quite relieved that I am not... I am at peace watching my Father work His wonders.